Director of a Non-Profit Organization
"I'm 57, a successful professional, financially secure (close to a six figure salary), beautiful home in a country club and driving a sports car. I consider myself a leader in my community and in my job with the ability to affect change on local, state and national levels. To the world I have it all, but inside that was far from the truth...
With my knowledge (the ego) I could expound truths of the spiritual teachers. I have a home library filled with 30 years of collecting self-help books and spiritual teachings and a long list of workshops, retreats, spiritual directions and counseling sessions that I attended. I was certainly good at talking about things and I actually made significant strides in my outward life. But in actuality I was drowning, unable to live my life in truth, very disconnected to the Creator and my true essence beyond past traumas and the fearful future. My years have been spent in trying to recover from my childhood, fighting depression and overcoming addictions that could fill three lifetimes. For me, as I'm sure with many other people, this has been a difficult life and I am now quite sure the "Light" inside me must be quite strong to have helped me to get this far without giving up or giving in to hopelessness that could have surely led me to unspeakable places.
About 6 months ago I was introduced this powerful and practical tool of soul clearing. After my second marriage ended in betrayal and abandonment, a huge theme in my life, I really thought it was all over for me. Hopelessness was so deep that my only thought was "please take me out of this painful world - I don't have the energy to do this any longer". Again on anti-depressants and trying so hard to keep my head above water losing hope by the day, is the place where my counselor introduced me to Jason's work. I was skeptical but at this point I said I would try this one last thing and if it didn't work I was through........ I would just give up.
At the initial clearing with Jason and my counselor Amanda, I noticed a real shift. I made some significant breakthroughs, at the very least, I could see hope that maybe this tool could actually give me a way to live a life of Peace, Joy and Freedom. What a thought!!! For 6 months now I've been clearing daily by myself. Once a week on an individual basis with my counselor and once a week with a group of women who are doing the clearing work as well. I have also worked with Patricia and Merrilee. The impact this has made on my life has been no less than extraordinary. Issues with fear, hopelessness, victim energy, enslavement, betrayal, abandonment, scapegoating and basically all the negative attachments I was keeping inside are slowing loosing their grip and clearing the way to a spacious open connection to Life and The Creator.
I see the affects of this in my work as I am better able to recognize my part in all the interactions I have throughout my day. I see it in my friendships and know who to call friends and those I need to let go. I see it with my family as I make more room for love and compassion instead of judging and advising. I am beginning to see it in my leadership style within the communities I work. The changes are not really noticeable by the outside world but what is happening inside me is both extraordinary and profound on so many levels I can't begin to describe them all here. All I can say is that Life is Good. What a huge relief to be able to say I really am enjoying my life, enthusiastic about the future and so very grateful for each day and everyone and everything that has brought me to this place at 57 years old. I can only believe it will get better and better as I continue to clear the way for my Life.
Words are limiting and all I want to say is Thank You, Jason, Patricia, Merrilee and UTUE (and of course Amanda my wonderful counselor and friend) for introducing me to this tool - You have helped to save this soul."
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